Halloween

 Why do people put up huge Halloween decorations and then not give out candy for Halloween?

That doesn’t make sense to me.

Anyway. No costume for me. I always have a mask on.

Some recent pictures.

Stuffed Shells

 

I thought I would work my way through some of my mom’s recipes.

Yesterday, I made simple marinara sauce, the way she always made it.

Naturally, it didn’t come out right, or taste as good. 

I wonder if that will ever change?

Will I always notice the difference?

In her later years, when she really couldn’t cook anymore.

She just sat there while I started the sauce.

And it was good.

I think I just need her sitting there with me.

I don’t feel like I’m doing great 😊

 

Peace

 

Current mood

Night Sky

 

Circles

 “In life don’t force anyone to talk to you… And don’t neglect anyone who always wants to talk to you”

—Asmita

I saw this quote today and it reminded me. 

Life is a circle.

As humans, we are not all in the same place in our lives, on the same wavelength all at the same time.

Not often.

I’ve spent my life taking care of others.

Worrying about others.

Not spending any quality time to grow friendships.

And now.

Now I have time for myself

But everyone else has moved on.

I guess the moral of the story is to make time in your life to develop life long friendships.

Don’t miss the chance when you have it.

Because the circle closes and you’re not in it.

I’ve built walls around myself and no one is knocking…

Going to look for a new book to read…

Blue Skies

 Another beautiful day for a walk. 

Beach Day

 Some time at the beach today. Sitting alone on a bench. Seems weird.I don’t know if I feel peace or if I feel alone…..?

Storms

 

“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” 

― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

Direction

 

We have instructions and a map buried in our hearts when we enter this world. 

—JOY HARJO

I’ve always loved Poetry and Meaningful quotes.

Something that makes you Think. Or Ponder.

We need to think and keep an open mind.

Communicate.

Listen to each other.

Share part of yourself.

Thoughts of my Mother…

 I’m writing thank you notes from my Mothers funeral.

I find I can’t put into words…what I want to say.

Why do I think I can write a blog?

But life goes on.

I don’t know what to do with myself.

I miss calling her at my usual times every day.

I catch myself, looking at the clock.

Time to call.

No. It isn’t and it won’t be again.

How to come to terms with that?

She loved red roses.

10/7/2023 thoughts of my Mother

 This may be a blog post I add to everyday?

I’m not sure how to let my feelings out.

Everyday, when I wake up, I have a minute of not remembering and then it dawns on me.

My mother died.

Every. Single. Day.