Tuesday 9/29/15

I got my flu shot on Friday. It's funny because I had the flu years ago and since then have always gotten the flu shot.
And I generally give people who don't get it a hard time, most think they are going to have a reaction or get the flu....
I always said to them, don't be silly....

Well, naturally I had a bit of a reaction on Friday night and pretty much felt lousy all weekend.
It was weird, I had the chills and I've been aching all over.

We had also decided to have a tag sale on Sunday, so I spent Saturday lugging stuff around.
We are having some company stay with us soon and we really need to cut down on the clutter in the house.

So, out to the garage I lugged 12 boxes of books and the spin bike and milk crate of weights.
My back was not feeling great on Saturday night and in the back of my mind I knew we would be just lugging stuff back after the sale.

Not too far off, though we did sell the spin bike and weights. A few books.
basically, we can't give this stuff away. and then certain neighbors brought some stuff over for us to sell.

Then there were the shoppers who showed up and had no problem with their child throwing rocks into our neighbors yard...who barely speaks to us, we know not why... Amy got the job of going over there and telling them. We got our rocks back.....

All in all, it was a busy, tiring weekend. We did decide to just donate everything that is left. no lugging it back in. Now, just need to get the futon back downstairs and we are all set.

We took Monday off, we knew we wanted to go to the beach and watch the eclipse.
And we did. it was chilly so we didn't stay that long and ended up watching the rest of it from home, where it was warm...

But while we were there.

It was a beautiful night and there were quite a few folks down there.
Many were sitting in the field with lawn chairs, others on the beach.

We managed to get a bench overlooking the sound.
peaceful
dark
waves crashing
people chatting
a family walked out onto the sand all carrying pumpkin globes that lit up.
it was fun. pretty in the dark.
did I mention it was chilly......

And the moon, though so high up in the sky, shone brightly on the water.
and we watched as the eclipse started and it looked like small slices were disappearing from the moon.

Did I try to capture the moment?
yeah I did.
but I forced myself to just take it all in.
not just the eclipse itself.
Everything.
It was so clear there for us.
and it was another starry, starry night.

I love the moon and the stars.
I love seeing people there.
Wanting to experience nature.
Experience life.

It's all around us.

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I know I haven't had much to say lately, it's because, well - I haven't had much to say.... kinda busy, kinda down. nothing major. Just sometimes words pour out of me and sometimes I feel I have nothing worth saying.
I'm in that stage right now. Nothing worthwhile to say really.
Hoping to see some light at the end of the tunnel soon....

Jumbled thoughts

Another weekend, another day spent at the hospital...good thoughts for my aunt would be nice....thanks. Hopefully just another bump in the road.

Lots of jumbled thoughts today.

I have this problem, I really like the give and take of a conversation.
One that flows.
I miss that.
That community of people.

Anyway.....

I love Marc and Angel site, so many good thoughts, the right way to live your life.
I will remind myself.
I will try to do better.
I will try to be a better person.

Sometimes we’re so busy watching out for what’s just ahead of us that we don’t take time to enjoy where we are. 

Laugh at the confusion, live consciously in the moment, and enjoy your life as it unfolds. 

You might not be exactly where you had intended to go, but you are precisely where you need to be. -

from 1,000 Little Things Happy, Successful People Do Differently http://www.marcandangel.com/book/

Monday

It's been a little over a year since Robin Williams took his own life, losing his battle with depression.
His death affected me deeply.
And I needed to talk about it with someone.
But I didn't.
I started questioning my life, my actions. I guess the way I was living my life.
Trudging through each day...thinking about what was really important in my life.
I'm doing better, having to deal with things on my own.
I don't accept help well, but when I do. I would hope it would be there for me.
Don't mind me, just talking to myself :)

Robins daughter, Zelda, posted this on Instagram.  It touched me.
There is always hope. Isn't there?

Moonrise on the lake,  I spent this night shivering and laughing under a clear, cold sky full of stars with people I love just to witness something beautiful. We mooned the moon and laughed ourselves hoarse, and I'm so incredibly grateful for every silly second. I came to a realization this year that I feel compelled to share here, for whomsoever may need it: Avoiding fear, sadness or anger is not the same thing as being happy. I live my sadness every day, but I don't resent it anymore. Instead, I do it now so that the wonderful moments of joy I do find are not in order to forget, but to inhabit and enjoy for their own sake. It's not easy. In fact, I'd say it takes much more effort to consciously do than it does to just stay sad, but with all my heart, I cannot tell you how worth it it is. And for those suffering from depression, I know how dark and endless that tunnel can feel, but if happiness seems impossible to find, please hold on to the possibility of hope, faint though it may be. Because I promise you, there're enough nights under the same yellow moon for all of us to share, no matter how or when you find your way there. zeldawilliams

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